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Welcome to my blog! Here you will find all things motherhood, women's life and the inner workings of the complex mind that is me! I say Welcome Enjoy and next time bring a friend lol!

Late Night Questions....

Late Night Questions....

Questions that cross my mind at night can vary from can I sneak a cupcake, to the point of existence, and the one that has crossed my mind the most recently as all my friends are experiencing the various stages of motherhood is does your life stop when you have kids or is it just beginning? I have friends who have had kids for years and so the diaper changing, spit up wiping, and sleepless nights, have come to an end but now starts the football practices, cheerleading practices, homework, back talk, and constant growth spurts begin. Children are an unending progression and thus it’s a thing of once you start you don't stop and so I am constantly wondering does my life stop once theirs begins? I know for most mothers that sounds like a silly question but as someone without kids I really wonder. if I need to have everything done that I want to do because it will no longer be about me. I have mothers in my life who will take kids in tow and still live their dreams but to be honest I wonder are those most as exciting or are they more of a," let me show my children the world, or show them they can do anything" type of situation in which case it's still not about you. My boyfriend has this idea that once we have kids we no longer have our own lives and as much as I reassure him that that isn’t the case I'll be honest with you guys (because you are family) and say I'm not always sure he's wrong. I love my freedom and my life but I also want the experience of a family and sharing that love, and those adventures but I don't want to miss Elisa either when it's all said and done. I don't want to trade my me hat for a mom hat completely, so does that make me selfish? Is it okay to want to be a mother but still want to be able to be selfish? Or is selfishness not a qualification for good motherhood? I often wonder where the balance is because I'll be honest I've never really seen a good example of it. I have mothers in my world who are ALL about the kids and the self-care suffers tremendously in my eyes. I am often looking from the outside wondering how they keep it together when they get zero time to themselves, can't go places they want due to time, money or lack of sitter. Then I have moms who in my opinion should have taken my approach and waited because they never have their kids and are still living a kid-less lifestyle which isn't the route I want to take either so I guess balance is the unicorn I have yet to see in the magic land that is motherhood so it’s hard for me to fathom doing it successfully and that thought scares me. I guess actually doing it will be the real test. I know there is no magic plan or set of instructions but I guess that doesn't stop those late-night questions.  What do you guys think?

All Hail The Tribe!

All Hail The Tribe!

Repect my Uterus and My Choices!

Repect my Uterus and My Choices!

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