Why A Motherhood Blog: When you're not a Mother?

Princess Peyton and I

Princess Peyton and I

Zion the Lion and ME!

Zion the Lion and ME!

 

Beautiful kids Right?

Well as you guessed by the title they aren't mine lol. While I play a significant role in the lives of my God-Children, nephew, friends kids, and babies by proxy , I don't have any biological children...Well not yet. So why a motherhood and women’s life blog you may say. To get into that I would have to first tell you a little about me. I am a 30 year old , Cleveland native with a love of food, travel , oh yeah and all things children! My borderline obsession turned passion was sparked by childhood, ignited by the birth of my God son, and set ablaze by job as an EMR analyst. For those out there who don't know EMR is electronic medical record. Basically , I'm a hands on hospital IT guru lol. That job exposes me to a lot and about 8 years ago landed me in Labor and Delivery. Now I have always loved kids and from the time I was 12 if you asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I would say," A MOM OF COURSE!" This was due in large part to having such an amazing mother growing up ( Shout out to L Beezy lol or just Lisa if your feeling formal ) . But it was during an assignment  8 years ago that I experienced my first in person  birth with strangers!  I know that sounds weird but when my God son was born I was so focused on my best friend ( I was in the room ) that I didn't have time to think about my feelings. But, in the room with strangers I was a welcome fly on the wall and after the rush of emotion that filled that room I couldn't wait until it was my turn to share in this over flow of joy. Well fast forward a few years and I get married and of course you know what's on my mind! BABY MAKING!!! I had love, marriage, and was ready for my nursery rhyme baby in a baby carriage. So after planning and many doctors visits ( I have joint disease and a host of ailments so a specialist was needed, especially after genetically being told at 13 that I would never carry on my own and at that point  taking hormones to increase my reproductive organ size, thus resulting in many other issues. But we will save that for a later post ) Any who, after many appointments we decided Artificial Insemination would be safest and we went for it ! And low and behold I got a POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST RESULT after our first try!!! We were so excited , but unfortunately that excitement was short lived as the stress on my body , caused by my now intense daily pain ( I was off all pain meds to conceive ) resulted in an early stage spontaneous abortion AKA a miscarriage . I was devastated. I felt like a failure as a wife , and a woman. I fell into a depression , cut off from everything including my spouse and eventually divorced. After my divorce I felt lost for a while and when I tried to answer the eternal question of what next, I tried to remember the last time I was truly excited and passionate about something and it brought me back to motherhood. They say those who can't do teach lol, well those without babies love on everyone else’s lmao!! I began to engage myself in all things women's health, birthing, child friendly , and more and thus came forth the idea of sharing all I'd learned from all of the amazing mothers I know with the world! Coffee With Mom began as a spark and conversation and has grown to be my labor of love. It is where I express my wants, needs, concerns, and fears as a woman right along side all the beautiful things that make up motherhood. So here we are, on a ride together and I hope my lack of first hand day to day knowledge won't scare you away I mean you would be shocked at how many OB/GYNs are childless lol but you don't run from them do you? Trust me , love on me, and take this ride with me because we are just getting started and I promise the way we grow together will have you sipping more than coffee out of that mug LOL !!